There Must Be A Reason

There must be a reason
The day I choose to quit, I get a phone call
There must be a reason
The day I think of giving up
I get a second chance
There must be a reason
The second I think this is too good to be true
I find you!

You never know the outcome, until you travel down the path
It may not be what you expect but with you it will last.
Seek God in all things and he won't let you down
That is why he is in heaven and wearing the crown.

The Biggest Job Ever

I think finally I have been given a job by God that is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I honestly don't know if I can do this. I think I am going to just have to ask him for support every single day for the rest of my days for this because this could literally just break my heart.

A little over two weeks ago I got a call for little premie twin girls with a possibility of adoption. Of course I said yes and they are an incredible blessing. It is hard and tiring work but I can't imagine it being any different. The truly hard part however, is that there is still a possibility that they may be going home. The dad seems bent on trying to actually parent. I don't blame him really but he is a sex offender, and he may also have some developmental delays. How they can even consider this man to be a father to these children is beyond me. The mom can't parent because she is severely delayed and has only an IQ of 59.

I have to just guard my heart and every day my heart is in my throat thinking that I am doing all this work to help them and I may just have to let them go. How on earth I am going to be able to do that I have no idea. I just pray and pray that He will see me through this because this one I just can't make it on my own.