Back to waiting, and waiting

UUUUUugggghhh!!!!! Ok, it's the day before memorial day weekend. I just need to vent and ask God for lots and lots of patience.

First, I got an email this week saying that my assessor's boss FINALLY read through our homestudy and approved it. I thought she had said that she was doing that 2 weeks ago. Well it is finally mailed out but it will be yet another 2-3 weeks before the state certifies us as adoptive/foster parents.

Second, the group who we contacted 2 weeks ago, to inquired about a child, still hasn't gotten back to us either. Apparently, they haven't been able to get agencies to get back to them. Everyone is on vacation it seems.

It is so hard waiting. I hate it! hate it! hate it! I realized this week that we have been doing a homestudy since Christmas, we have been doing the foster/adopt thing for a year now, and the trying to conceive #2 thing for 3 years now. I keep getting teases but no relief. It's not as though I am not enjoying my life and my one child in the meantime. However, it is really, really frustrating to keep going down this road with no outcome.

I feel bad because at this point my husband could just give it all up and toss in the towel. I am the one who just can't move on. I feel like there is a child out there waiting for us and we just haven't met them yet or maybe we have but we just can't get to them.